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SUPPORTING THE DH

Aug 31, 2010 08:18pm (EST)

One of my best friends had a healthy baby girl yesterday. She is precious! I was there for part of the labor, and it looked painful.

I had a c-section with no labor, so I have no idea what that's like, my friend has an almost 4-year-old, but she said this birth was completely different than her last one.

So I sat in the waiting room with her family, anxiously waiting, worrying about what kind of pain my friend was in, and hoping that everything was going well. My friend has been a huge support to me over the past few years, and especially over these last few months with Tucker's testing and diagnosis, and now with him being in a full-time special needs class...and I have needed that support!
And I can really say that she "gets" me, and that I was not jealous or anything, I was very happy for her and ready to see her baby. I ended up having to leave to get Tucker for an appointment before the birth (her labor lasted longer than I thought!), so we went back to the hospital to meet the baby and check on our friends tonight.

They are not used to hospitals, and after less than 48 hours they are sick of it! I held the baby for a while and felt kind of shocked at how easy it was to tell when she was hungry or needed to be moved around...anyways...DH was freaking out the whole time! He freaked out when we pulled in the parking lot, walked in the doors, walked through the L&D hall, you get the point....he politely refused to hold the baby (this couple is both of our friends, not just mine).

I think I really overestimate his "healing" from Tucker's birth and subsequent issues. I was just thinking the other night how I will never, never, never heal from Tucker's prematurity and now his mito diagnosis. That just won't happen, but I have figured out how to live with it and even be happy for other people....not happy for everyone!!

there are still some people who I look at and wonder "really???" they've done....so and so....and still they get a healthy baby??? But mostly I can separate myself and Tucker's experience from what other people go through...of course I am glad that not everyone goes through what we did, I wouldn't wish that on anyone!!

I told DH tonight that I had Share, and I had real support for over 4 years, and I still have a long way to go. So of course he is not okay going back to the hospital. I have to "deal" with issues everyday, I was always the one taking Tucker to doctors, comparing him to "normal" babies, and even preemies, realizing how far behind Tucker is, and how awful his birth story and NICU stay really were in comparison to almost everyone. I also had the blessing of pretty much being knocked out for 4 days while DH had to stay wide awake through Tucker's birth and the waiting....he took each family member and friend in to the NICU and saw their reactions to our tiny baby. He could hear the other families in the postpartum rooms with crying babies, while I slept for 2 days after Tucker's birth.

DH's sister is having a baby in January. This will be the first grandbaby other than Tucker on either side, and I thought since so much time has passed, maybe we would all be healed enough to just be joyful. I can tell that is not going to be the case, and that hurts my heart.

My friend told me that right after her baby was born, her whole family got to come in; they passed the baby around, their son got to give his little sister her first bottle; she said it was like a party....she also said that she was thinking "I hope Leigh's next baby is born just like this."
Well I do too!

Not just for my sake, but for DH's sake as well. I am worried that if he never holds his own healthy newborn in his arms, he may never hold another baby again....and we have many many nieces and nephews in our future, all of whom I hope to love and spoil.

We are dealing with the mito diagnosis right now, and the idea that even if my next pregnancy goes perfectly smooth, and I have a fullterm baby, he or she may have problems in the mitochondria that could be devastating...I feel like I am still willing to try (the chance of recurrence is 25%), but having another baby is not something I have ever taken lightly. I guess I just always assumed that with time, the idea of having another baby would be less scary....but lately I have realized that the older Tucker gets, the more scared we are.

Just trying to blog it all out, and wondering how to support my DH when I have needed his support for so long...sometimes I forget how differently he deals with emotions and that he is at such a different place in the "healing" (or dealing with it) process. Wish us luck.

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A DIAGNOSIS

Aug 17, 2010 09:21pm (EST)

Hi everyone,
I can't believe I have been away from Share for a month. I check in on your blogs periodically, but I have not been checking it 10 times a day like I have for 4 years...

A few weeks ago DH and my world was rocked...yet again....Tucker was diagnosed with Mitochondrial Disorder, with Depletion Syndrome, meaning that his mitochondria will lose its DNA as it copies for each new cell, and therefore his condition(s) will get worse. We are not sure how this will affect his body, or the timeline of events, so we get a very sad, scary diagnosis with also the "wait and see" game that we are all so fond of. The Dr also said that half of his issues can be explained by prematurity and the other half by mito, meaning that Tucker was hit by a huge double whammy in my opinion, like being struck by lightning twice...

I thank God every day and night that I had Share to get me through the preemie experience, and I also met some amazing moms through Share who are unfortunately veterans in the mito world also, so I am not going through this alone.

The main reason I have been avoiding Share is because I can not attend Share Union

I attended the last two years, and swore I wouldn't miss anymore, but this year one of my best friends is getting married that same Saturday. DH and I are both in the wedding, and I wouldn't miss SU for anything less. I feel like I am missing out on SU when I could really use some hugs!

I have so much to update on, we finally had Tucker's Naked Neck party, to celebrate his trach removal, and that day was likely the best day of Tucker's life! We rented a 17 foot water slide for the day and invited over tons of people. We also hired a professional photographer to capture the memories, I'm sure my guests thought I went way overboard with that, but WOW the pictures came out amazing! Two days after the party we headed to Houston and got the results of the mito testing, and coming home to see all of the pictures was exactly what we needed.

I came to Share at a very scary time in my life, I had a 27 weeker fighting for his life in the NICU, and I desperately needed advice and hope. I always wanted to one day give hope and inspiration to other parents, showing them that they could one day come out of the other side and be okay. It breaks my heart to think that Tucker's story is so insane, and that most moms can't relate to it. I hope I help you all each in some way as Share has helped me so much.

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GRIEVING THE LOSS OF THE DREAM

Jul 15, 2010 09:01am (EST)

I don't have time to write too much....but I have needing to get this out.

I have been in counseling for several months now, and I think I just had a "breakthrough" if you can call it that, on Monday.

I always thought I was very upfront and realistic with Tucker's issues, at least I seem to be compared to some of the parents I have come across.

Well I realized that I have grieved for the loss of the perfect pregnancy, perfect newborn experience, even each stage since then....but I have not really grieved for the loss of my future dreams....the idea that we will be going through this crap FOREVER....it will not end, and it will not get (much) easier....

We are always looking to the next step, like when he got off the vent, got his trach out, started school, etc. He has improved greatly, but we are waiting for a day when he becomes "normal" and that is not going to happen.

I think the MR and autism concerns (which we have really always had, though we did not admit them) really hit me very hard. My counselor said coming out of denial is like getting hit by a sledgehammer, and it takes time to lose that feeling.

I think something clicked Saturday night for me....not sure why....my SIL got married Friday night, and I was looking at the pics today....it was like that was the "old me" before I realized the truth. Which is really odd, because I always thought I "knew" the truth.....but I know that denial is actually a way that our brains protect ourselves and get us through the crap we have to go through to keep our kids alive....and now that I don't have to work hard at that anymore....I can finally let go of that denial...it will not be easy.

So today I went to WalMart, we have Tucker on a blended diet, so that requires lots of baby food. I went to the baby section to get it, and I felt sick and weak looking at the baby clothes. Now just last week I went to that section and felt fine, like I had missed out on so much with Tucker, but I can still look at baby stuff for other people, or maybe even for another of my babies one day....today I just ran past it.

It has been four years, and maybe I am just starting to deal with the yuckiness that I have felt inside....I really want to somewhat heal....I know that may not be possible, but I want to be okay with seeing other kids and doing what I need to for Tucker, and right now I am finding it hard to have the energy to do anything....

Thanks for listening guys, it means the world.

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FIRST PSYCHOLOGY APPOINTMENT

Jul 01, 2010 01:23pm (EST)

Yesterday DH and I went to the first Psychology Appointment, they wrote down our account of Tucker's medical and developmental history as well as what we are concerned about. It took an hour and a half, but it did not seem that long, since there was a lot to cover!

I had told DH about the concerns about MR, and as we covered more things, the psychologist brought it up a few times. I did 99% of the talking, and some of the things DH said were complete lies!

Then when I corrected him, he fought me, like I was the one making things up.

But I set them straight, because he was saying Tucker did things earlier than he really did, or was saying he can do things that he can NOT do...I think it was mainly that DH did not understand exactly what they were asking, not that he was trying to blatantly mess up the evaluation.

After it was over, he said that they must think that I am a b**** and that he is an idiot....

so that sounds just great!! He said it in a joking manner, and then laughed, then said "according to you, all Tucker does is sit in a chair and drool!"

I don't think that is the case! I just painted a much more honest picture!

I read a book this summer titled "Special Children, Challenged Parents" it was such a GOOD book! Well one of the points it made was how moms often know something is "off" about their child for months before anyone else. Even if the kid goes to childcare, the mom is just often more tuned in to the kid. Then the mom has to struggle with her own feelings, along with the denial of the dad and other caregivers, since they do not see the kid as much.

I have often felt like this over the last few years. I accompany Tucker to everything....playdates, school, therapy...and I see what "typical" 4-year-olds do, and that Tucker doesn't even compare. My mom and MIL raised 10 kids between the two of them, but that was years ago, and so even they are shocked when they see "typical" 4-year-olds at Tucker's parties and activities, and realize the differences-when I am confronted with this everyday.

So anyways, I don't think that embellishing on Tucker's history or abilities is helping anyone, when the people will meet Tucker next week anyways and see what he can and can't do.

So after everything, they recommended that Tucker have an ADD/ADHD evaluation when we were ready, but that we hold off on the academic and cognitive evaluation for about 6 months. From our interview they said that Tucker is improving rapidly since the trach came out (there was a miscommunication before the meeting, apparently during our phone interview they got the impression that he only had his trach for 6 months instead of over 3 years-so they now realize what a big deal it was in his development). So they said it is really up to us, but the tests cost over $500, and they dont' want to have to do the tests now, and then we feel that they are not a good reflection since he is improving so much.

We agreed to delay the academic testing, (which would screen for MR and autism), but we scheduled the ADD/ADHD testing for next week. His attention issues have been so severe and pervasive that I am not comfortable starting the school year without even starting this process. We also have several questionairres to return by next Wednesday to help in the diagnosis and evaluation.

So that is one big thing on our plates right now.....
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And okay, Tucker decided to start eating way better....totally out of nowhere!!! I swear, with this kid, I get to the end of my rope on something, almost to the point of giving up, and that's when he starts to improve!!!

His OT gets him to take in, chew, and swallow about 5 bites of spaghettios, then he gets to lick a cheeto....then repeat until we get about 20 bites in. At home, he is not nearly as coordinated, and we get about 15 bites in before we finish.
Next week we are moving onto mac and cheese....I mean, he is still getting about 1% of his food orally, the rest through his g-button, but it's still great!

He also has been talking a lot, and using better pronunciation...other people can't understand most of it, but it's getting better! Tucker is starting to have more "typical" toddler behavior, such as NOT sharing his toys at school! His teachers have to make him take turns, so he tries to take his favorite toys and hide in the tent! About five times this week, someone has asked me "is he an only child?" Wow, that obvious, huh??

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TWO VERY SCARY LETTERS...

Jun 24, 2010 09:51pm (EST)

I am super scared about this...so I think getting it out of my head and onto Share may help me just a little....

We signed Tucker up to start with the psychology program at our peds office. The doctor in charge has lots of experience with attention issues and feeding issues, and she oversees PhD students who deal with the kids' cases.

Chris and I are going for our first eval next week to fill out a bunch of questions and give an overall picture of Tucker. Then if we choose to carry on (which we will) Tucker has a big evaluation next, which would screen him for tons of academic issues, like ADD, ADHD, autism, and MR....as in mental retardation....this is not the first time I have considered that my son has MR/Intellectual Disability. (It's called MR/ID nowadays)

The psych student mentioned it in passing, but I really think the tests will show that...

They measure it based on "kindergarten readiness", and I told them I don't think he'll be ready for kindergarten for probably two years....but that's the test they will use just to have a baseline.

I know that Tucker could maybe get diagnosed as MR now but then later make progress and get out of that?? But that is really what I thought last year, and after this year at school he has obviously made HUGE progress, but is still way behind the other kids...even though the other kids are all considered special needs with delays....he is still obviously behind...kind of a kick in the tummy.

I have always been able to convince myself that Tucker is so smart. And he is!! However, I worked with kids and adults with MR for a long time, even in high school....most of them are smart in several ways. I was always amazed at how well they knew their environment and certain skills, yet they were still obviously not going to read or write or move out on their own....that's just the truth.

So I have been trying to put it out of my mind...then today on facebook I saw a picture....it's a pic of a little girl's letters. She wrote several words...of course she needed spelling help, but she's only 3 months older than Tucker and was writing words! Tucker can barely hold a crayon and draw a straight line. I don't know....I just really do NOT want to kid myself, I have seen many parents who are clueless about their own kids' abilities, I don't want that to happen.

Of course I will love Tucker and help him reach his potential no matter what the case...but right now I kind of want to vomit...

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ONE OF "THOSE" PARENTS

Jun 20, 2010 04:58pm (EST)

Well I am officially one of "those" parents...most of my friends are teachers, and I know they would all be making fun of me right now!

I just dropped Tucker off at Vacation Bible School....it's not at our church, because our church has VBS during the time that Tucker's in preschool. I looked around at the 4 local Catholic churches, they all have VBS during the day. My mom and I know people at all 4, so I would have felt comfortable volunteering there and/or leaving Tucker, but no luck!

So on Saturday DH's cousin and his wife both posted on Facebook that their church is having a VBS this week, from 6-830 pm, all kids welcome! So I messaged them and got a little more info... I volunteered with my church's VBS for 9 years, it is a ministry that is very close to my heart. I offered to volunteer, but they said each adult had to be fingerprinted and trained...I understand that, our church is the same way. So they said "you can just leave him, we have plenty of volunteers, and the curriculum is set up for special needs kids also." So I decided to give it a try.

I just dropped him off, there were about 8 4-year-olds and about 5 adults...so it seems fine. The lady in charge of the class had a grandson with a g-button, so she knows about it, he doesn't need to get a feeding anyway so it's really not an issue.

He walked right into the class and sat down with some horse toys (it's a ranch-themed VBS), and didn't seem to care that I was leaving! I know there will be music, and likely outside game time, two of his favorite things! They asked me if he talks, I said he does talk alot, but they probably won't understand anything he says!

So this is the messed up part...I feel like I just abandoned my kid! I have left him many times, but it's always with trained professionals or our parents! Never with just volunteer people. I make it very clear to therapists or teachers just how special we feel our kid is, and how to handle him. This is the first time that I have given minimum instruction and just let him go, to see how he would do. I want him to be around kids, and to interact with kids. His preschool class is pretty low-functioning (I am not being mean, the teacher actually said that), and I really want Tucker to have some experiences with "typical" kids who really talk and eat.

I also want him to listen to Bible stories and songs about God. I always loved VBS, and it is amazing what these kids learn and keep with them after just one week. I also KNOW that if I had stayed in the classroom he would have misbehaved and not learned as much.

So DH's cousin didn't have anything to do for a while. She is in charge of the music for Tucker's age group, which did not start until 7. So she talked to me for a little while, and then pretty much pushed me out the door! I asked her 3 times if she had my number, and told her not to hesitate to call me!! I also told her that I want them to be honest with me, if they feel Tucker is distracting other kids or not really paying attention I don't have to bring him back...

Wow!! I need some help....

UPDATE:
So about an hour into VBS, I got a text from DH's cousin-it was a pic of Tucker coloring and smiling, she said he was having a blast!
He cried for about 10 minutes, then they got a preK teacher to come in the class. She let him take a break from the noise and kids by himself for a minute, then he came right back to the group ready to play.
He "rode" a bull, drew pictures, and sang songs. They said he did great!! DH said this is more proof that we are just so overprotective of him, and that he will be fine!!

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SHAME AND GUILT

Jun 18, 2010 01:53pm (EST)

Ever since Tucker's OT mentioned the feeding clinic (and in her defense, she mentioned it casually, I don't think she pressured me at all!), I have been trying to figure out my "real" problem with it, and why it sent me into a tailspin.

After a few talks yesterday, I realized....my old pals, Shame and Guilt were to blame.

Of course Tucker's feeding issues are REAL, I did not make them up. But it's not something he could die from or really make his life horrible...he just doesn't eat. He doesn't even care, but I do!! I am literally embarassed in restaurants and other public places, because I think feeding is really the main obvious thing that makes Tucker different.

Does that make sense? He is very delayed, and doesn't talk like a 4-year-old, but really the only big obvious difference in a play setting is that he does not eat. He runs around, follows kids, screams when they scream, cries when we have to go inside, etc., just like the other kids. But when all other kids are happy to sit down for cake and ice cream, or to gobble up pizza, he is not. And I am really sick of him being that different.

This makes me feel like a terrible mother, because how awful to be "embarassed" of my kid for something my kid can't control?? Why should I care how he looks to other people, or that they wonder about his eating issues....yet still I do!!

Two years ago at Share Union, Rachel's Dad talked about parenting special needs kids (I don't remember his name, but he wrote the book "For the Love of Rachel). I was at a very low point at that time, Tucker had just been diagnosed with austism, and I felt that no matter how much therapy or work or love I threw at him, I would never find my son beneath whatever was going on with him. The man said that parenting a special needs child is a marathon, not a sprint, and that parents should train for it that way....take rests, take breaks, realize that they are in this for the long haul, so take care of themselves. Also that even the best runners and athletes have very bad records...no one is ever 100%, so why do parents expect themselves to be at 100%??

Well those were good questions that I really needed to ask myself then...and now! We deal with so many issues, and Tucker is in so many therapies, but always in my head is "what else can we do for him?" "what are we missing here?" The real point is "if I was doing everything I could for him, surely he would not be so....delayed, averse to foods, still in diapers....fill in the blank!" So if my child is in someway not measuring up, I automatically put it back on myself and feel that I am not doing enough....

So yesterday my mom and I talked for a long time, she basically had to tell me to snap out of it! That I am a good mom, and that thinking that I never do enough is just going to make me crazy. Of course I said that she is my mom, therefore she HAS to say I am a good mom, right?

So then yesterday afternoon Tucker's speech therapist came to the house like every Thursday afternoon. I asked her opinion on the feeding clinic. She said Tucker really is on the very bad end of the feeding scale, which I already knew. She said she has recommended feeding clinics to several of her patients, but none of them has ever gone. She said it takes 12 weeks and costs $30,000, so she does not actually expect us to go. She knows of a few "experts" in this area that are not practicing therapists, but that could talk with both she and I and give us some more advice if I want it. I also signed Tucker up with a local psychologist to talk about feeding and attention issues the other day, so I told the SLP about that. She said that sounds like a good step.

So then I asked her point blank "anything that any doctor or therapists has ever asked me to do for Tucker-I have done it. How can someone recommend something to me that could get my son off of the g-button, and then I can just say no I won't do it, and actually live with myself? What about when he's 10 years old and still not eating?"

She was shocked, I think. So she told me she doesn't think it will be that bad, that he will eat one day. Then she told me that she has never known parents that go so far to help their kiddo, and the amount of activities and things I have Tucker in is amazing, and don't forget that.

So for some reason, then I felt that a huge weight had been lifted. Some outside source had said I was a good Mom! That even though my son struggles with so much, it's not my fault.

How messed up is it that I needed this validation? After 4 years, I can't believe that I really have no "mom self-esteem." I have tried to work through the guilt-I KNOW that Tucker's early birth and long NICU stay were not my fault, so why do I think that all of his delays and other problems are my fault?? Like I have somehow failed him, or continue to fail him, because he has not overcome all of his issues??

I would really love to throw Shame and Guilt out of the window! Maybe sometime soon!!

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UGH...FEEDING ISSUES

Jun 16, 2010 12:41pm (EST)

Tucker has been doing great lately! I have so much to say....so why do I only come to this blog to complain???

We always knew Tucker's feeding issues would be tough to overcome.

But I am getting to a point where I can't stand it....the other day I saw 16 month old twins eating snacks before Tucker's therapy. I was just SHOCKED at how natural it looked! Eating is just so UNnatural to Tucker! How weird that NOT eating is our normal, I almost asked the mom if she was sure her kids were old enough to be eating those snacks?? How dumb would I have looked??

So today Tucker ate about 1 tablespoon of spaghetti, and this has been months in coming to this point....or years, I guess. So his OT mentioned the weeklong feeding clinics in Denver, where whole teams get together to work on kids' feeding issues. This is something I have considered in the past, but I was really hoping that the GI dr or mito dr (or Someone!) would find something "physically" wrong with Tucker to explain his issues, then maybe we could help him that way. So far, he is perfectly healthy, he just will NOT eat.

I can't even wrap my brain around spending at least a week in Denver, then having a whole team of specialists over 1000 miles away.

I also can't wrap my brain around staying the course we're on now....I remember this quote: "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over, and expecting different results." Which is what we have been doing!!

Hopefully I will have some great revelation on what to do......

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4TH BIRTHDAY...AND SOME PEACE

Jun 01, 2010 09:31am (EST)

Tucker turned 4 years old last Wednesday...in some ways the last 4 years have flown by, in other ways it feels like so much longer!

The days leading up to his birthday were emotional for me, but his actual birthday was so great!

I read Julie's blog a few months ago (Riley bug) and she said how the days leading up to Riley's birthday were tough, but starting on her actual bday she was so happy...that has never been the case for me...Tuck's bday always puts me in a funk, and I don't come out until September...not really sure why! So julie's blog gave me hope that May 26 would someday be different for me, and this year it was:)

Tucker was so well-behaved that day, he even ate at feeding therapy. I bought him a big bouquet of Mickey balloons, and his face just lit up! He played with them for two days. We usually have huge bday parties, but this year we opted for small, inviting just family and close friends. That still added up to about 50 people!! Anyway Tucker was so excited about his party, he wanted to open the presents as soon as he saw them! Once my bil walked in with a Mickey gift bag it was over! So we started cake and presents before everyone even got there. I can't describe how great it felt to be helping him open presents instead if chasing after him, trying to make him be interested! It is the first time he "got" the whole birthday idea, and we all loved it.

Lately I have had more peace about a lot if things, including pregnant people. I know that would sound ridiculous to any one other than us! A good friend of mine is 26 weeks pregnant and doing well, I can really ask her questions and listen to her concerns...she says she doesn't want her baby to come even one day early, and of course I agree!

It will always always be tough, but I am not like I used to be, so upset that I couldn't even talk about pregnancy with nonShare people. DH and I found out we are going to have a new niece or nephew yesterday. Apparently they were terrified to tell us, very scared of how we would react. My first reaction was "Oh I kind of wish we were having a baby right now," my second reaction was "yippee I'm going to be an aunt!!!" DH is pretty excited too:)
We have a niece already (my sister has a stepdaughter) whom we love, but we have not been an aunt or uncle to a newborn yet, so we are pretty excited.

Of course, this comes with fear...the fear that I will wake up another day and not be so at peace with all of this. I think DH and I are really really hoping for good results from Tuck's mito testing...we won't find the results until late July. As long as having more healthy kids us an option for us, we can be happy...doesn't that sound kind of awful???? If we find out that more kids are not in the picture...that may be a blow we could not recover from. I so like being happy lately, I am hoping we can stay this way...is that too much to hope for??

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SPRING IS ENDING:(

May 21, 2010 03:44pm (EST)

I love, love, love springtime! There is do much about it that's great, and I always seem to be in a better mood during the spring.

Springtime took on a new meaning when we brought Tucker home in midFebruary of 2007. It was still wintertime, but after a few weeks indoors, we got to celebrate all kinds of "firsts" with Tuck that spring. Tucker spent three whole seasons in the NICU, spring was the season we had him home. So it is the season that doesn't remind me of a sad past.

Of course springtime, and my general good mood, both end around the end of May...school gets out, Tucker celebrates a birthday, and the temperatures skyrocket. Four years later, and I can still feel the deep sadness of our first summer spent in the NICU. It just makes me sad, I wish I could focus on all of the good parts, and all of the fun we will have this summer, but sometimes the reality and sadness is overwhelming.

We are in Houston right now. Tucker had his muscle biopsy and lumbar puncture today to test for mitochondrial disorder and other metabolic disorders. He was not too happy to be here, but he was a professional patient, not taking anything personal! He has been sleeping for several hours and so has DH. I will sleep tonight while they have a party, I guess, because I don't think they will be tired tonight:)

Sorry I have been MIA, my laptop got crushed (we think Tuck stepped on it) and it's tough for me to type my comments on my phone's tiny keypad! I have been reading your blogs, though, as usual.

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