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Shelleylmu

March 2010

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TRIP TO FLORIDA

Mar 09, 2010 11:16am (EST)

So we've been in Florida visiting the in-laws - had a good time, but glad to be home. Kaden got to have 2 new firsts! First trip to the zoo and first time in the swimming pool. Maybe a little to young for the zoo, he didn't really seem to care about the animals but he did enjoy being outside and in his stroller. He's definitely no afraid of the water - he loved the pool! Unfortuately there was only 1 day that was nice enough to go swimming. Looking at the pictures I realized that we really didn't take that many but I did attach a couple.

I've been feeling pretty good. Still a little tired and still a little nauseas from time to time but overall, so far things are good. Almost to the 2nd trimester - yeehaw!

Oh! And for those of you that watch Kitchen Nightmares. When we were in Florda we ate at a place called "Le Bistro". It's going to be on Kitchen Nightmares this week. Personally I think Gordon Ramsey needs to go back. Not sure what it was like before they taped the show, but service could use some work. The food was pretty good, but I probably wouldn't go back. I think it's kind of neat I've been someplace on tv - hehe, I'm a dork.

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THIS IS HARD

Feb 14, 2010 07:42pm (EST)

Ok, so being pregnant with a 6 month old is hard. This may sound a little whiny, how in the world can I take care of Kaden when I'm soooo tired?? Thank goodness Kaden is a good baby or I'd be done for. I feel guilty that I haven't been playing with him as much, but I just don't have it in me. I just keep hoping that the 2nd trimester will be better.

Some fun news is that we found out last week that my sister is having a boy!! She already has a 5 year old son, so she's getting the boy streak alive. I know she's really hoping I have a girl so she can get all of Kaden's hand me downs. Truth be known I'm kind of hoping for a girl too

Of course, if another little boy is in our future I will be happy too!

Don't really have much of an update but just wanted to check in.

talk soon!

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6 MONTHS

Jan 24, 2010 09:46am (EST)

My baby boy is 6 months old - wow 6 months old. I have a photo album where I have a bunch of pictures that I have in date order. It's just amazing how much he has changed. I look back at the pictures of when he first came home and I just boggles my mind that he was that little! We had his 6 month photo shoot on Friday and from what I've seen so far they turned out soooooo cute. I attached a couple. We bought a package where he gets his picture taken every 3 months, then we get a certain about of prints from each shoot. It is SO hard to pick the ones we want.

We have his 6 month visit with the doc on Monday. So more shots

I hate that part. Kaden has been fighting a cold for over a week now so I'm glad we're going to the doc for that reason too. He seems fine most of the time but he just can't shake the cough. It's got me a little worried but he is in daycare now and all the kids have had colds. They've probably just been passing it back and forth.

So big news - that was quite a shock to me actually. I'm expecting again

We had decided after Kaden that we'd just let nature takes it course. Well I guess nature wasn't messing around. I'm due in Sept so Kaden and the new baby will be just barely a year about. Oh my goodness!! I'm excited but a little anxious. Having 2 little ones at the same time makes me pretty nervous. I'm sure we'll figure it out though. But here we go again - nervous about every little twinge for 9 months, that I don't look forward to.

But anyway, this blog is getting longer than I anticipated so I better run. Hannah's 2 year birthday is tomorrow so that is looming as well. Although this year, at least not yet, it doesn't seem like it's been quite as hard on me. Last year we stayed in bed all day, but this year we have things planned to do so hopefully that will make it a little easier. I felt so guilty last year that I just moped all day. I know Hannah wouldn't have wanted me to be like that. I don't think I'll be all happy and bubbly tomorrow but I don't want to be mopey. We'll see, sometime what we plan doesn't actually happen.

Happy Birthday baby girl! You have another little brother or sister on the way. Please help us keep them safe. We love you!

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BOYS ARE SO STUPID SOMETIMES!

Jan 11, 2010 09:01pm (EST)

So this post is just me ranting - don't mind me just got to get it out.

My friend's "boyfriend" is a complete idiot! I'll try to make this as short as possible. So my friend and her "boyfriend" have been "together" for close to 9 years. Yes, I said 9 years. She lived with him for a little over a year then moved out when he asked her b/c he wasn't happy. But anyway I digress... Supposedly they are together right now. The week of xmas my friend's mom had a routine surgery that has turned out to have a lot of complications. She's been in the hospital since New Year's Eve. A little twist to the story is that my friend lives in KC and her mom is in Georgia.

So my friend has been in Georgia since the Wed before xmas and unknown to me her car has been parked at the airport since then too. So she asks her "boyfriend" to pick it up last week so she doesn't have to pay her other arm and leg and he said NO! Can you believe that! He's to busy. You'd think he want to help her anyway he could. ArghhhH!!!! It makes me so mad!

So there's my rant, I feel a little better now. Guess I need to look a picture of my beautiful son to cheer me up!

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STUPID TV

Jan 02, 2010 09:31pm (EST)

So I'm having a relaxing evening. Kaden is in bed, Ryan is at work, all of our family has gone home. I really like the show House and discover a marathon on Bravo. Wellll of course they just had to have an epidsode about sick babies and of course one of them had to die. Ahhh - I totally fell apart. It wasn't so much that the baby died, I know it's tv and it's not real. It was the reaction of the mom when they told her. At that moment in time I was back in the hospital, seeing Hannah on the ultrasound monitor with no heartbeat. My dr. saying "I'm so sorry". It felt like my heart was literally going to beat right out of my chest. I guess you could say I had a mini panic attack. So what do I do.... I march right up the stairs and get Kaden and just rock and rock and rock. I couldn't let him go, I just had to feel him breathing. I'm glad he didn't wake him up or I would have felt a little guilty, but at the moment I don't think that would have mattered. Luckily my meltdown didn't last very long. All back to "normal" now thank goodness.

My official position is that tv shows should not be allowed to have shows about sick babies! Stupid tv.

Change of subject...

Kaden has sat up! Granted it's only for a few seconds at a time but I still count it as officially sitting up. We managed to catch a quick picture.. He's to funny

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XMAS IN A CROWDED HOUSE PART 2

Dec 28, 2009 09:11pm (EST)

So I forgot to mention in my previous post that Ryan's brother and sister both brought their dogs and they peed all over my house!!! Oh lordy give me patience.

So a few pics attached. Kaden's first bite of rice cereal and some xmas pics. It actually looks like he's trying to open the gift in the second one - hehe

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XMAS IN A CROWDED HOUSE

Dec 26, 2009 10:19am (EST)

So Merry Christmas everyone!! I've had an interesting xmas so far. My husbands family is here (Mom, Dad, Sister and Brother) so we've had a pretty full house. They've been here for a week so far and OMG I'm going crazy!! I love them all dearly but it just takes toll having so many people around. My SIL and BIL are leaving today but mom and dad are staying a whole other week. Ryan will be working most the time in the evenings so it will be left to me to do most of the entertaining. In normal circumstances it would be hard but emotions are running pretty high right now. Hopefully I won't have a crazy person breakdown.

It was so cute seeing Kaden in his baby's first xmas clothes - what was even funnier is when his grand dad was holding him and he had a total diaper blowout - hahaha!! I'm so mean but it was really funny. What was crazy is that he didn't even realize it, you would have thought he would have smelled it. We did know what happened until he picked him and we saw the signature brown stain all up the back of Kaden's onsy.

Kaden is becoming a rollover master - he can get over to his tummy with no problem but then gets so mad b/c he can't get back over to his back. We also started him on rice cereal this week. So far so good. I've just been giving it to him once a day so he can get used to it. I'm pretty nervous about the whole thing, what to give him, how much, when?? Yikes!

Of course we are missing our Hannah terribly. I think she would have actually realized what was going on this year. We would have had her in her little xmas dresses - so cute! I guess one thing good about having a house full of people is the distraction.

My mom and dad are coming in January for a late xmas. I'm looking forward to it b/c it will delay the post holiday blues I typically get. And of course it's worse now b/c we coming right up on Hannah's birthday.

Well this has turned out to be quite a long blog. Better put on my "I'm so glad you are hear face" for the fam. Talk to you all later.

Pics to come.... Got some good ones on the camera.

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SPLIT

Dec 17, 2009 09:52pm (EST)

I've kind of been avoiding share a little bit here lately - it doesn't help that my work has blocked the site

But I know there are so many of us feeling blue with the holidays coming up. I'm in the same boat. I feel like I have a split personality. We are having so much fun with Kaden, we got his picture taken with Santa, made plates with his footprints, buying gifts etc. But then I start thinking about how much we've missed with Hannah. She will be 2 years old in January. 2 years! How can that be?? Everything seems so surreal sometimes.

My in-laws will be here on Sunday - I think it will be a good distraction having them here. Down side is that they are staying 2 weeks

I love em don't get me wrong but that's a long time. We'll see how it goes, hopefully we all won't drive each other crazy. This will be the first time they've seen Kaden in person since he was born. Are they in for a surprise - he's soooooo different.

Mommy loves you baby girl.

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HOW PRECIOUS LIFE IS

Dec 03, 2009 03:00pm (EST)

I received news today that a friend of a friend passed away suddenly from an aortic aneurism. She was in her 30's and about 7 months pregnant with her second child. She has a little girl who is 2 years old. They were able to deliver the baby alive and he (i think it's a he) is currenly in the NICU. From what I understand he's not doing very well. My friend was actually on the phone with her when it happened - they were talking and the phone just went quiet. My friend could hear the little 2 year old screaming in the background and called 911. The whole thing is just so devastating. It's really makes you realize how precious life is and how quickly it can be taken away. Unfortunately so many of us have learned this lesson before.

My little circle of friends have had some serious things happen to us in the last year or so. I'm ready to only hear good news from now on!

Soooo...

Some really exciting news is that my other friend whose daughter, Shelby, was in the NICU was able to come home the Wed before thxgiving! It was such a surprise to them, they got a phone call from the hospital and expected bad news since that's the only reason the hospital calls. Turns out they were calling to tell them to come pick up your baby because she's being discharged! A truly thankful thanksgiving to be sure.

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THE SNIFFLES

Dec 02, 2009 03:20pm (EST)

So I'm finally (funny to say finally when Kaden is only 4 months old) experiencing a cold with my baby. It's awful! He can't breath and I feel like such a meany when I give him his nose drops to try to help. He's got the most pathetic sad cry ever!

And of course I'm coming down with something to. I HATE cold/flu season - errr! I'm sure it's something we picked up on the plane over thxgiving.

If it wasn't for this darn sickness thxgiving was great. We got to see a lot of family we don't see very often. Kaden was an angel on the plane - thank goodness. My nephew Lucas is 5 and is so cute around Kaden. He's really starting to want to help. He was "in charge" whenever Ryan and I had to go to the bathroom or take a shower or anything. So funny.

We actually took Kaden's car seat on the plane with us this time and it's sooooooo much better than holding him in my lap. Just gives you a little freedom to move around a little more. He did get to experience sitting in the big boy plane seat all by himself for a few minutes. We had a stop over and didn't change planes so we got to get up and move around some. You'll notice that in the picture he has no socks.....

So right before we start to board Kaden gets his red "I'm gonna poop face" and just lets it go. Talk about panic - do I run and change him, do I wait to get on the plane?? What to do what to do! So I decided to try to hurry up and change him - well he pretty much had a complete blow out. Got all over his clothes. I had spare clothes in the diaper bag but oops no socks! Luckily it wasn't really that cold but it was pretty funny seeing his little feet just hangin out

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