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Lost my son and been trying...poem
momofEDF - 11:27pm Apr 12, 2008 EST
I have lost a son to premature labor and have had 4 other lost pregnancies. I just lost my 3rd pregnancy due to miscarriage not including my son who was born at 24 weeks and stayed with us for four days. I like this site, it makes me feel comfortable. I am lost right now learning I could have an auto-immune blood disease. Thank you for always listening.
Love, mom of Ethan (and lots of other little souls)
I have five reasons I want to die
and no one can understand one.
At first I was young and thought it was best
that is something that can’t be undone.
The second was love, my dear sweet husband,
we were blissful, naive, and dumb.
Whatever was wrong, it was quick and over
and we didn't’t quite understand what was done.
The third, our sweet, sweet dear young son,
Ethan, born at 24 weeks.
He fought so hard and had the odds against him
we realized he was way too weak.
To be here on earth but not in our hearts for he is truly our first one.
Wherever he is upon this earth, I know he has been re-born.
This almost destroyed us but made us strong
and in one more year we can try again.
So that year went by and we mourned our boy reluctant to try again.
We waited and in time I was pregnant again
with much misfortune to come.
Our sweet next pregnancy became quickly
something that was left undone.
So we took a step back and talked to the experts
guessing at what was unfolding.
Thought we had it nailed with low progesterone
and started all over and hoping.
Number five came easy and we were so hopeful
could’t image a God so wrong.
We were cursed once again by losing our child
how can life be so cruel?
So what does one do, curse at the Gods
or understand how precious life is?
Because obviously when it happens for us
it’ll be a miracle from within..
What does one do to recreate,
take life in their own will?
If I could leave a protégé
then my life on earth would be fulfilled.
LF 4/12/08
I have lost a son to premature labor and have had 4 other lost pregnancies. I just lost my 3rd pregnancy due to miscarriage not including my son who was born at 24 weeks and stayed with us for four days. I like this site, it makes me feel comfortable. I am lost right now learning I could have an auto-immune blood disease. Thank you for always listening.
Love, mom of Ethan (and lots of other little souls)
I have five reasons I want to die
and no one can understand one.
At first I was young and thought it was best
that is something that can’t be undone.
The second was love, my dear sweet husband,
we were blissful, naive, and dumb.
Whatever was wrong, it was quick and over
and we didn't’t quite understand what was done.
The third, our sweet, sweet dear young son,
Ethan, born at 24 weeks.
He fought so hard and had the odds against him
we realized he was way too weak.
To be here on earth but not in our hearts for he is truly our first one.
Wherever he is upon this earth, I know he has been re-born.
This almost destroyed us but made us strong
and in one more year we can try again.
So that year went by and we mourned our boy reluctant to try again.
We waited and in time I was pregnant again
with much misfortune to come.
Our sweet next pregnancy became quickly
something that was left undone.
So we took a step back and talked to the experts
guessing at what was unfolding.
Thought we had it nailed with low progesterone
and started all over and hoping.
Number five came easy and we were so hopeful
could’t image a God so wrong.
We were cursed once again by losing our child
how can life be so cruel?
So what does one do, curse at the Gods
or understand how precious life is?
Because obviously when it happens for us
it’ll be a miracle from within..
What does one do to recreate,
take life in their own will?
If I could leave a protégé
then my life on earth would be fulfilled.
LF 4/12/08
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