Its been 5 months

Yolanda,

Wow, five months. Time is so strange. Sometimes it can feel so long ago and sometimes like just yesterday.

You are still standing 5 months later. It's no small feat. I think it was a weight off my shoulders when I let go of ever finding the old me. That person is long gone. Instead focusing on how I could make the new me a better person that enjoyed more of life.

You and your sweet D'Lon Grace are in my thoughts,
Lauren

I agree with Lauren, its seems so long yet like yesterday. Sometimes it seems like a dream to me; did we really go through all of this pain?? I know that I wondered how we would ever get back to our lives, and then realized that we never will. Sofia changed us forever, we will never be how we were before her. And your D'Lon Grace has changed you and you will never be the same without her. I think it takes a while to learn your new life and that you have to get on without them. I still wonder why, why do we have to go on without our children, but for some reason we do, hopefully one day we will know, and without the pain. You are in my thoughts daily, try to learn to live for your daughter, how she would want you to live, not just existing. Thinking of you and your husband.

Kelly

Hello,

Just wanted to let you know that reading your story describes exactly how i feel. I am new to this website, I have found comfort reading all the stories. On January 30, 2009 I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl Sofia Alejandra. She sadly didn't get to take a single breath when she came into the world due to her umbilical cord wrapped around her neck. I am trying to stay as strong as I can for my husband and family, but it is definitely very hard especially at night, before I fall asleep, I start reliving everything again. I pray to God that she is with Him in heaven where there is no hurt. It is very painful not to have her by my side. So all I want to let you know that n you've probably heard it many times before but you are not alone. Before this happened to me, I realize I took many things for granted, I feel selfish for not being more sympathetic for other people who had lost a baby before. But now, I wish I had the power to help them through their struggle and pain and so I hope to make a lil difference in others who are experiencing the same pain I am going through. So please hang in there, do it for your loved ones, n I know our babies in heaven wouldn't like for us to be sad all the time, so be strong n don't lose hope. Feel free to write to me if you ever need to talk.

Thank you.

Yolanda,

Please know that as you continue this difficult journey grieving your precious daughter, that there are many of us that walk beside you. We are here for you to lean on when you need that support.
That''s what makes SHARE such a wonderful place. I have found such healing here, such comfort and understanding. Take these days ahead, one day at a time, one step at a time.
My prayers are with you.

Thinking of you.
Colleen

Yolanda~

You are in my thoughts as you walk through this journey....

Tracy

Thank you so much!

Hey Yolonda,

it's been 7 months since i lost my son and people always say wow that's gone fast, and i always say well it hasn't for me.

too have found myself stuck in the in between - not shut completely down but not moving forward either. Most days i don't even want to get out of bed but eventually i do, i have 3 children and i truly believe if not for them i probably would have completely lost it. i think i would have just given in. I no longer get up early with my 2 older children and get them ready for school, they do a lot more for themselves now a days and have even started doing more for my youngest who is almost 2. used to walk them to and from school every day but now i send them on the bus something i never would do before, there has also been times that my husband has come home from work and i am still in the previous nights bedclothes haven't done a thing all day and have not moved from the sofa. don't really want to leave my house for it seems to protect me so many people have said the wrong thing to me when out and about so it's just easier to not see them and in turn i have pushed so many people away. But a step in the right direction for me is realising what i am doing wrong and i am trying to fix it, this week i walked my children to school twice and next week i will be again.
my small step will eventually bring me leaps ahead.

don't think i will ever feel like me again because a part of me went with my son and it changed me for life. But we can only try to bring some of the normaliity back to our lives. wish you all the best in your journey take care
Chris

Hang in there, Yolanda. I think about you and your little girl all the time!

Love, Kelly

hye I miss my son more and more everyday and each day is starting to get better and my son died Feb,9 2009 he was only 4 days old but I loved more than life itself and now i'm starting to do better. and with my husband being a Truck Driver i'm able to get out and not sit at home and dwell on things. but we are planning to start to have another, but it will be next year before we even start, but for now i'm just being on the road with my husband and I do tell my son Christian James that I love him every night before I go to bed. and that helps my sleep

I am sorry about the loss of your son. It sounds like you and your husband are beginning to move forward while you keep your son close to your heart

I hope each day is better than the last.
Ellen