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Still missing my daughter..

Ethan and Emily's Mommy - 11:46pm Mar 6, 2009 EST

I lost my daughter, Emily Anne, because of an umbilical cord accident. I was 36 weeks when I delivered her on February 8, 2009. I miss her so much and I feel like no one understands what it has been like to lose her since she was stillborn. I am still young, 20 years old, so I have been starting to go hang out with friends again. But for some reason I feel like others are judging me... as if I'm living my life like Emily was never born. In reality, my daughter is living through me. Am I the only one that feels like this?

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goodman2009 - Jun 22, 2009 2:38 pm (#13 Total: 15)

No, you are not alone, I lost my son on Feb, 9 2009 he was only 4 days old, but not a days goes by that I don't think about him, I miss him more and more everyday, and I take it One day at at time , I have to save that my Husband does not talk about it at all, he blocks it all out as if it never happened, and for me I had to seek help for myself and now I'm actually doing better than I was 4 and1/2 months ago, but just take it one day at a time and things will get better.

Robin

Holding John Joseph's Hand - Jun 22, 2009 6:09 pm (#14 Total: 15)

I lost my son in March of 06. He was born at 26 weeks and lived in the NICU for 5 weeks.

I wanted to tell you what you are feeling is completely normal. For the longest time I wouldn't even laugh because I felt like people would say "why is she laughing... doesn't she miss her son?" Of course now that time has passed, I know that those thoughts were in my head only and people actually told me how happy they were to see me out and smiling again.

You need to bring some "normal" back into your life. Your life will be forever changed by the death of your child, and only someone else who has lost a child can truly understand that. Do what you need to do for yourself and please don't worry about what others think... you have enough to deal with right now.

Feel free to email me if you want to talk.

Tara

chantelle (baby ashleys mummy) - Jul 22, 2009 6:07 pm (#15 Total: 15)

Aww bless u...no youre not the only one who feels that way..my beautiful boy was born still on 20th jan 2oo9..i always feel guilty if i go out with friends and try do normal things,always end up crying for my much missed boy...always feel like i shouldnt smile..very rare i even feel like smiling now since losing my ashley anyway...soz ive gone on,just want u to know how youre feeling normal,i here if u wanna talkx

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