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My Sweet Angel

Grieving mom - 05:27am Jun 23, 2009 EST

On June 2nd my beautiful daughters heart stopped beating at 38 weeks in my womb.She was born June 3rd and I so devistated she is dead. She was scheduled to be born five days later by c-section. I still can't believe that I don't have my beautiful daughter to love and hold. The doctor said it was a cord accident. I had a sonogram three days earlier and everything was o.k. I have a healthy 2 year old who I cherish but I miss my baby girl every second. I have so much guilt thinking I should have known something was wrong and I would have her here to hold instead of longinging for her.This is just unbearable.I can't believe I have to live my life without her I wanted her so much. I cry every day and still am in shock. Please pray for our sweet girl.



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SueKlein100 - Jun 23, 2009 10:40 am (#1 Total: 12)  

 

you are in my prayers

I cannot begin to imagine the pain you must feel. Saying that no one knows why these things happen doesn't help. You are in my prayers that your grief will become bearable. I believe firmly that God has a plan, and none of this will make sense to us in this life. I am so sorry that this happened to you. I hope you are able to find some peace.

creed - Jun 23, 2009 10:59 am (#2 Total: 12)  

 

I know how you feel. I lost my baby too. The guilt is big as well as the pain. Just trust in the Lord and you'll be able to get through this. You're in my prayers, Carmen

Angel Love - Jun 23, 2009 11:01 am (#3 Total: 12)  

 

Welcome to Share! I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I too have lost a child and know the heartache that goes along with it. Please know that we're here any time you need someone to talk to who understands.

Tracy

imani'smom - Jun 23, 2009 1:05 pm (#4 Total: 12)  

 

I am so sorry for your loss.. I couldnt imagine the pain of losing a child.

I am happy you found Share. Please know we are here to listen and support you.

Cathy

npaola - Jun 23, 2009 4:35 pm (#5 Total: 12)  

 

Hi I lost my baby boy in Jan at 39 weeks , the date of my schedule c section ,my last appoint, was dec31 and baby's heart was ok ,,it was an hpercoiled umbilcal cord ,only way to know is growt restriction or doppler of the cord ,my baby was 7 lb 5 oz an 21 " long so no reason to suspect otherwise ,do I question my self oh yes evrday ,thinking if I had paid attention Jan 1 maybe he would have been here.
I know your pain it's devastating.

I was Ayden's mom - Jun 23, 2009 9:29 pm (#6 Total: 12)  

 

Grieve all you want for your baby, it is so hard to accept the cruel reality when you expect to come home from the hospital with your baby in your arms but you don't. I lost my baby boy last month when he was 10 days old and with no reason at all. He was full term, weighed 7lbs 3 oz and healthy - and then one day he was gone. I understand your pain and hope you have the strength to face the difficult days ahead.

All the mommies here at Share have also lost their babies - pls feel free to share as much as you want, we are here for you.

Take care,
Jo

Shelleylmu - Jun 24, 2009 10:38 am (#7 Total: 12)  

Mommy to ^Hannah^ 35 wks and Kaden 37w2d bday 7/20/09  

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your story is so similar to mine. I went to the doctor and my daughter was fine. 2 days later I'm in the hospital at 35 1/2 weeks and my doctor is telling me she has no heart beat. I think I was in complete shock until I actually delivered her a couple days later. That's when they concluded it was a cord accident. I think about her everyday and while I've been able to live with the pain it never truly goes away. I'll be thinking of you as you go through this journey.

Shelley

Grieving mom - Jun 26, 2009 6:23 pm (#8 Total: 12)  

 

Re: you are in my prayers

Thank you so much for the support and encouraging words regarding the loss of my daughter. I will keep you in my prayers.

Mother of angel TN - Jun 27, 2009 5:11 am (#9 Total: 12)  

 

Am so sorry for the loss of your dear daughter.But please do not feel guilty.i too was feeling guilty after my son died 4 months ago.It was not your fault dear that such a thing happened you carried your daughter with love for 38 long weeks which shows that you loved her.If everything was upto us,we would have surely stopped the death of our children.I will be praying for you.
Rosaline

KHolley - Jul 2, 2009 2:09 pm (#10 Total: 12)  

 

I am so sorry for your loss, no parent should ever have to go through that kind of pain. This is a great place to find some comfort and healing. Welcome to Share.

Katie

tintori09 - Jul 3, 2009 7:06 pm (#11 Total: 12)  

 

IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT I CANT FEEL WHAT YOUR FEELING BUT AS A MOHTER I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO NOT HAVE YOU CHILD IN YOUR ARMS THEN YOU START BLAMING YOUR SELF I KNOW BEACESE I BLAME MY SELF ALL THE TIME. I WILL KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS

Grace's Mom - Jul 4, 2009 5:41 am (#12 Total: 12)  

^i^D'Lon Grace^i^ ~ Forever 3 ~ Missing you every second of every day!  

I am so sorry for you have officially joined "the club" than no one ever wants to be a participating member. The loss you have suffered is one that no parent should have to bear. I am so sorry for the reason that brought you here, but thankful you have found it. Share has been my saving grace after giving birth to a 23wkr in 2005 to her death in 2008. This place and the people that make up it's community has done more to my spirit than I could possibly ever put to words. I hope you find as much comfort and support as I have as you navigate your way through this impossible journey.

Take good care,
yolonda



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