I still feel numb!

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how you feel. I lost my son Leevon, who was also 16 weeks early, on Oct. 30. He was born on Oct. 21. My OB said nothing in the pathology report on my placenta seemed irregular. I had an aruption which caused the early delivery. My first son was a normal pregnancy and birth. They couldn't really tell me why I delivered early. He suspects there may have been a problem from the beginning of the pregnancy but couldn't give me a definitive answer as to what went wrong. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Certainly not relieved. I wish I knew why it happened. The not knowing is terrible. How do I know it won't happen again?

I have been sleeping but have terrible nightmares right now. And when I wake up, the first thought in my mind is the loss of my son. I hope you get some sleep. I know in time the pain will not have so much control over our lives but right now I only feel pain and loneliness.

I'm very sorry about Jadelyn's passing. No words can help right now, I know. I hope that you find peace soon in this terrible journey.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your little girl. Losing a child is a terrible thing to go through. When i was discharged from the hospital my doctor gave me xanax for the anxiety, after two weeks I called a psychiatrist and a therapist and the medication helped. My therapist i really didn't like so i stopped going. I also tried accupunture it helped me relaxed a little. It has been a year since i loss my Tristan and there are days when i feel okay and can see a happy future but there are other days that I don't want to get out of bed and I've learned that its okay to stay in bed if i want to. You have to do what works for you.
Big hug
Trish

Hi everyone,
I have been reading all your postings and i feel for each and every mum who lost a child. I was pregnant with twins, a boy and a girl after 4 years of trying and my water broke at 24 weeks. My poor babies stayed in the incubators for 2 and 3 weeks and passed away one right after the other 5 months ago. I was in complete shock and disbelief!! I felt totally helpless. I couldn't help then in anyway! I am heart broken.At first I felt guilty then numb, tired and sick most days. Am on antidepressants which makes me indifferent to everything including my husband sometimes. I feel really scared of trying to have kids again and going through this one more time. I really don't know what to do..I am not the same person anymore in many ways which i can't explain! Am turning 34 and am terrified of not being able to have kids if i don't try soon. If you have any word of advise for me, i'd really appreciate it..love

Hello and welcome to Share, I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your sweet babies. There are many angel moms here that understand what you are going through, myself included. I lost my twin girls Emilyn and Hailey almost three months ago, and have found Share to be a huge support system for me on my bad days, and even on my "good" days. I hope that you find the same here. My only advice, that I have been given myself many times, is be kind to yourself, and take it one day at a time, but it's ok to take it one breath at a time when you need to.
Stacy

My triplets were born 14 weeks early! t had the same problem even with two tries of stitching me closed and 3 weeks of bedrest they cane early. It is not you, it was something that you and I could not control! I lost one of my daughters after 19 days. The other two are turning 4 in July. I wish that I could share with you a trick or to about feeling better but there is none. I know it is hard to get up each morning and I still have tose days but our ANGELS would not want us to not live anymore. We have to try and celebrate that our live have been touched by ANGELS! I know these are not the words that you are looking for but from one mother of and angel to another I hope this helps. We do something special on Kaitlyn's day! the 1st year we had a mass and set balloons free, 2nd year we had a private family day and brought her flowers with the kids, last year my husband bought 2 dozen butterflies to release in the Bronx Zoo Butterfly garden. I send you hugs and please lean on share for support that is what helped the most.