One Month
abb - 12:34pm Nov 29, 2009 ESTTomorrow marks the end of the first month after losing my baby boy Leevon. Why does it feel like yesterday? The pain, emptiness and loss feels just the same. But I'm happy too. I have a healthy four and half year old son who is the joy of my life. I have a wonderful husband who loves and supports me. Yet nothing takes away the grief. It lingers and haunts me.
Leevon lived only 9 days in this life. He was born at 23w6d. He fought heard and is loved by many. I will never forget him and will love him forever.
I wonder what's next? When will I feel normal again? I know I'll probably never be the same. I can only hope that I'll be better. But right now I just feel broken, hurt and defeated. How do I get back to normal?
One month down and a lifetime to go. I miss my baby boy. I'll miss him forever.
Grace's Mom
- Nov 30, 2009 5:30 am
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^i^D'Lon Grace^i^ ~ Forever 3 ~ Missing you every second of every day! (I HATE PH!) |
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Hello and welcome to Share. I am so sorry for the loss of Leevon. There is no experience in the world that can prepare you for the loss of a child and the aftermath that follows. I know that aftermath firsthand as I lost my 3 year old (born at 23w1d) suddenly last year and nothing in my life has been the same. Although I am sorry for the reason you were brought to Share, I am really happy that you found us. This is where I learned preemie 101 after my daughter discharged from the NICU in 2005. Share has also been my biggest place of comfort after I loss her in 2008. Please know that same comfort is here for you too.
Wishing you peace underneath all of your grief.
Take good care,
Yolonda
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esg1
- Nov 30, 2009 9:14 am
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Abigail's Mom (29 weeks, 3/21/05) |
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Welcome to Share. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son, Leevon. Everyone grieves differently and here you will find many people who have, unfortuneately, walked in your shoes. Many have found comfort here, in support groups, therapy, blogging, church groups or all of the above. I hope that you find a place where you can share your son and find peace and comfort, eventually.
Take care,
Ellen
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Angel Love
- Dec 5, 2009 9:24 am
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Looking forward to seeing you at Shareunion October 1-3 in Atlanta, GA!! |
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I'm so sorry that you're having to feel this way! It's hard..... There will be a time when it gets easier, but the missing him feelings will always be there loud and clear. I've been missing my daughter for 6 years now and yes, I can make it through most days without having issues, but she's always in my thoughts and sometimes I just need to have "Taylor Days" where I cry for her. I wish you the best, and please know that we're here any time you need to talk. Tracy 
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