I just can't stand it!

Thank you to everyone for your kind words. Some days are better than others. That day I had been holding it in and finally the dam burst. I am sad that communities like this have to exist because I would never want someone to go through what I want through, But I am glad to know I am not alone. I appreciate everyone of you and I wish you all the best. I hope your holidays are filled with happiness.
-Kay, Bernard, Logan and angel Gavin

im so sorry for the loss of your angel...i can completely relate to what you have written...it has been 11 months since i lost my beautiful baby boy and i still feel much of what you do...i still cant bare to be around anyone who is pregnant...hear or talk about other peoples pregnancys...i cant even watch anything on the telly thats to do with it...it reminds me too much of what ive missed out on and long for....i have pushed so many people away and also learnt who my real friends are...i dont feel like the same person i used to be either.....i think the email is a good idea....i just want you to know you are not alone in how you are feeling,im here if you need to talk...hugs...chantelle xxx

I'm so sorry for your loss. What you are feeling is perfectly normal. Thank goodness for the women on this site that told me that when I first started blogging about losing my baby girl. When I returned to work about a month after losing Addie, within a few weeks there were four women who announced they were pregnant. I too wanted to hide and hated having to go to work each day. I just kept to myself - selfish or not - because I was hurt and seeing them hurt me. You have to do what is best for you and not worry about what others may think. In time, you will be able to visit with them and move forward but for now, be gentle with yourself and let yourself off the hook.

Prayers to you and your family.

Cindy

I know how you feel. I lost my son Brayden at 23 weeks on Dec.21. I am completely devastated as this was our first child. I cry everyday, I isolate myself because sometimes it feels like I just cant be happy. I don't like going to the mall, grocery etc. because all you see is kids and babies and pregnant people. I cant even look at anything on tv with a baby or pregant person in it. I am broken. But I continue to meditate and pray and that gives me strenght. I will pray for you and know you are not alone. We all hurt we all have undescribable pain and you are not alone! God Bless You!

I am so sorry for your loss! I know how it feels, I lost my girls at 23 weeks in December of 08. All I can say is that that the pain does get more manageable. You are able to get through each day a little easier as time goes by, and then you do get hit with a really bad day and feel like you have to start all over again. But each time this happens the recovery gets a little better. It is now over a year later and I still have some really bad days. I think the pain never goes away it just gets easier to put it into heart and deal with life. We are broken and have been changed forever, but it does get better! As for my friends who were pregnant at the time, most of them understood and the ones who didnt arent true friends. My one friend was due two weeks after me and i still have trouble looking at her son - it just makes me feel so sad for my girls. The pain can be so raw at times. I am looking forward to participating in the walk for babies in April in honor of my girls. It feels good to have some control over something. Just know you are not alone and all your feelings are natural. Sending love and hugs - Lisa