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gmhmommy - 09:18am Jan 5, 2010 EST

It is extremely difficult for me to explain my feelings, but I guess there are many of you who have been in the same situation. It breaks my heart when I have to say I lost my baby boy. I want him back so badly. I want to be able to hold him for just a little while longer. Caleb was born 15 weeks early and passed away just 52 minutes after birth. My husband and I were able to hold him and watch his little heart beating. Every breath he took brought tears to my eyes. Its just not fair. I don't understand why these things happen. My heart is broken.



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Jackie G - Jan 5, 2010 7:51 pm (#1 Total: 7)  

Mom to Kimberly (25 wkr, now 6 yrs!) & Matthew (38.5 wkr, almost 4 yrs!)  

Nothing I can say will take away your pain, so please just know that we are all here to listen whenever you need us.

hugs,
Jackie

Grace's Mom - Jan 6, 2010 6:10 am (#2 Total: 7)  

^i^D'Lon Grace^i^ ~ Forever 3 ~ Missing you every second of every day!  

I am so very sorry for your loss. Nothing in life prepares a parent for the death of their child and the aftermath of pain the follows. Unfortunately there are many of us that are a part of that broken club. Please know that you are not alone. Share has been my saving grace after losing my daughter suddenly in 2008. I still cant believe I am working on the 2nd year without her.

Please be gentle with yourelf, breath through the moments and just take it a day at a time...shoot a second a time if need be because baby steps are okay.

Take good care,
Yolonda

crazylee53 - Jan 6, 2010 4:52 pm (#3 Total: 7)  

 

So sorry for your loss. Many of us here are in the same club. It was recently a year since I lost my twin girls at birth at 23 weeks. You will feel every emotion on a rollecaoster ride. Just know it is OK and we are always here to listen. Just venting on here made me feel better or at least let me get it out! Sending you healing thoughts - Lisa

Wyatt'sMother - Jan 7, 2010 10:29 am (#4 Total: 7)  

 

I wonder too

I lost my son on December 19, 2009. He was born at 28 weeks. He lived 8 days. I should be happy I had those 8 days with him and I really am but I wonder "why only eight?!!" I love him so miss him so much. He did great for the first 6, doctors were saying he'd be home in February. No one saw this coming. He was so healthy. Everyday is a nightmare without him. I stayed at his side in the NICU for those 8 days and I just so badly want to be able to walk back in his room and him be laying there looking up at me. I am shattered, crushed, depressed. I am sorry for your loss.

ajy - Jan 7, 2010 5:46 pm (#5 Total: 7)  

 

you are not alone...

I completely understand that question. My son Brayden was born at 23 weeks. He lived for 17 days. He passed away December 21. I remember each of those days. I struggle each day with why he is no longer with us. He was our first child. The pain is unbearable and I feel like a part of me died with him. I don't understand why he was only here for a short time and i miss him every minute of every day. The hole in my heart will never heal and I didn't know pain like this existed....Be Blessed

ajy

kaz - Jan 8, 2010 5:39 am (#6 Total: 7)  

luca's mummy x  

wish i could help xx

hello my name is karen,

am so very sorry you lost your little caleb, nothing i can say will really help, but just no you are not alone and this place has helped me over the last few months with coming to terms with loosing my little man, he too was 15 weeks early , he was with us for six painful but fantastic weeks and i miss him so badly it just aches. every day is a struggle but we will get through, please take care of yourself and each other wish i could help more i am sure your little star is being taken care of watching over his mummy with love kaz x

Angel Love - Jan 8, 2010 6:44 pm (#7 Total: 7)  

 

There is no answer to that "why?" that will make sense to you here on earth! I'm so sorry that you're having to go through this heartache that so many of us know. Please know that we're thinking of you and are here to listen any time you need to talk.

Tracy



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