Born 25 week earlier 5 weeks later

tori787 - 03:48pm May 3, 2010 EST

On March 30 th my daughter Ciara Michele was born at 25 weeks due to a low heart rate she was 2 lbs even and 13.5 inches long i was taken for and emergency c- section. after my c section i learned that my placenta had abrupted by 50% and that my daughter and i was lucky to be alive thank god that i had a OB appointment that day. well she stayed in the hospital i delivered her for a week to the day before she had any problems. but ever since they transferred her to UMC it has been a roller coaster shes was transferred because her heart rate was going up to 300 and above. all the nurses in the nicu call them her episodes because her heart rate will stay in the 130s and go right to 300 and back down the cardiologist have no idea why and she also has an arithema (where the heart takes longer to contract )she also had three wholes in her heart one being a pda which now have all closed she has a grade 2 brain bleed which have stayed the same over the last 2.5 weeks she has a staff infection in her eye and she has a staff infection in her lungs which gave her early signs of anmonnia and they gave her antibiotics to help she was on the vent of a week and then she was put on the oscillator for a week and it was a ruff week Ciaras heart rate was going to 250 the nicu team had to sedate her because she was fighting the machine and her lungs were still contracting but it seemed so long and that all my husband and i were getting was bad news the cardiologist said that the meds were helping because her heart rate wasn't in the 300 he had also told my husband and i that her heart rate being so high is damaging her body cause when her heart rate goes up her blood pressure goes down and that damaged her kidney also since the heart is pumping so fast that the heart chamber walls are getting thicker and since there getting thicken the blood that goes to our lungs to oxygenate our body she wasnt getting enough when her heart contracts the walls close completely pushing all the blood out so it takes longer for her heart to fill back up and she has two iv burns one on her hand and the other on her ankle all this happened for about a week in a half and then it was a complete turn around no arithmeas no more episodes they started feeding her put her back on the vent and they was even saying that if thinks keep going that they were going to consider taking her off all together. well that lasted about a week an a few days cause three days go it started all over again heart rates at 230 - 250 and shes not coming right back out of it. It been 12 hours 5 Hours before she comes out of it and today its been just about all day the only difference is her blood pressures been good and not dropping they put her on the oscillator again and she was taken back off today because her oxygens been good shes at about 30% some times i wonder how im ever going through this but when i go see my little girl even though she has all these tubes and wires and it just makes me want to cry and some times i do i realize that shes a fighter and shes going to keep fighting that shes going to be okay and that i have to fight with her because shes going to know if i give up...