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Nyreetig - 12:41am May 20, 2012 EST

I found oit I was pregnant n nov of 2011. I was so happy. Then when I went to the dr I found out I had a tear n the dack and thete was hardly any fluid. My son was born april 23 and died almost 10 hours later. Me and my husband got to hold him when he passed away. Now I feel like im living a nitemare. I cant eat or sleep rite. I recored his heartbeat the last time I went for a check up and now his gone. Im very mad...pissed at myself. I would of gave up my life jus so he could have his. Hes gone and I cant stop crying. Everytime I wanna eat I get mad at myself saying, hey he not here to eat so why should I b able too. I get angry at dumb stuff and my husband is so supported of me, telling me to take all the time I need, but I jus cant seem to b able to deal with him being gone. My baby wont b able to hear me say I love you now...

KHolley - May 20, 2012 1:38 am (#1 Total: 7)

Welcome to Share. I am so sorry for your loss. I hope that you are able to find some comfort and healing during this difficult time.

Katie

NathansMom13 - May 20, 2012 6:05 pm (#2 Total: 7)

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Hi and welcome to Share. I am so very sorry for you loss. I hope you are able to find some comfort from those of us here on Share during this very difficult time.
Laura

Hunter and Randi's Mom - May 21, 2012 7:00 pm (#3 Total: 7)

I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet boy. I know how terrible the loss of a child is. Almost 4 years ago, my daughter was born at 26 weeks and passed away 3 days later. From a little futher along in the grieving process, I can tell you that the pain never goes away, but dealing with the pain gets easier with time. Be gentle with yourself as you grieve your terrible loss. We are here for you. It also may help to look into meeting with a grief counselor or a support group. No one is prepared to deal with the loss of a baby, and sometimes talking with someone can help.
Thinking of you,
Marissa

lvazquez - May 21, 2012 9:48 pm (#4 Total: 7)

Mom to Donovyn (32 weeker), Tristyn (34 weeker), and Naethyn (30 weeker born sleeping)

Welcome to Share. I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your precious baby boy. I'm an angel mom too and found this site. Everyone here is super supportive. There are so many emotions and waves of grief. In the beginning, I cried non-stop and wondered if it was always going to be like that. Everyone is on a different timeline and my feeling is that you should take all the time you need. Continue to lean on your husband. I saw a counselor too early on and it helped just to talk to someone.

Wishing you strength,

Lindsay

brookeg - May 21, 2012 11:22 pm (#5 Total: 7)

Hello and welcome to share. I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I wish no one had to go down this road and know the pain and grief we do. I am also a angel mom who lost my son at 30 wks. It has been over two years since my loss and I can say it has got easier with time. I still think of my son every day but I don't have the acute suffocating grief I did in the beginning. I found this site to be so helpful in my grief as well as doing things to honor him.
Wishing you peace and strength
Brooke

josie1204 - May 22, 2012 1:12 am (#6 Total: 7)

I am also an angel mommy..my daughter passed away two months ago and lived for 2 mnths...i understand how you feel. I went through the same thing and honestly only time gradually heals our pain. Im happy your husband is supportive together you will make it through this moment of sorrow. Your baby will always be with you and listen when you say i love you...I always tell my baby i love her and i know she can hear me as your baby can hear you...
Thinking of you
Josie

Nyreetig - Jun 1, 2012 10:22 am (#7 Total: 7)

Thank u all. Im tryn to deal with him being gone. I cant seem to get it together. I cant think right anymore, I dont want to eat but I promised my husband I would. I look at his beautiful picture everyday and wonder why. Im so freakn pissed at myself cuz hes not here nomore. Why is this happening to me? I want my baby boy back and I know that wont happen.

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