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Angel Love

June 2012

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RANDOM RAMBLINGS SOUTHERN STYLE

Jun 05, 2012 01:35am (EST)

First of all, have you ever had someone ask you a question that was absolutely HILARIOUS to you because you thought the answer was so obvious???

I had that experience today with a friend who is taking classes with me for this degree. She was sharing some conflict that she's going through with another friend and asking advice for how to best handle the situation and still remain friends. After a long conversation, she said, "Do you ever have bad things to happen in your life?"

I lost it!!!! I laughed so hard!!!!!! I mean really??? You have to ask ME that question??? Do I hide things that well?????

Sometimes you just need a good laugh to keep from crying I guess!!

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My nephew's team fought a good fight tonight, but lost the game 8-7.

They were winning the entire game, but in the end, silly mistakes cost them the game. I try to remember that they're only kids and that they're learning the game, but good grief....I wanted to shake some of those boys to wake them up!!!

I'm so use to having games to go to each week and something to get excited about........kind of a let down for me when others are celebrating the fact that the season is FINALLY over.

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21 days and counting till the girls' birthday!!!!!!!!!!

These things are coming way too fast these days......

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IN A BLINK

May 28, 2012 01:11am (EST)

Nine years ago Memorial Day weekend my life changed forever. I lost the innocense of thinking that pregnancy was always perfect for everyone.

My complications began on this weekend.....I moved into the hospital not knowing what our future would hold.

I'm thankful for the doctors and nurses that shared the knowledge that allowed us six more weeks of growing time for my twins.

I'm thankful for my family who was by my side constantly knowing how scared I was of the unknown.

I'm thankful for the NICU staff from two different hospitals who put every bit of knowledge, love and care into my little girls like they were the only babies there.

I'm thankful for the nurse who rocked my Taylor until God came to get her.....and comforted her daddy when he realized that he didn't make it in time.

I'm thankful for the nurses who helped me to understand all of the beeps, alarms, wires, and gadgets attached to my tiny little survivor.

I'm thankful for the strength that God has given me to sit here 9 years later and be thankful. My precious tiny survivor will be celebrating her 9th birthday in a month!! Although her sister will not be here on earth with us, she's definately planning a big party in Heaven!! (I'm sure all foods there are fat free and super good too!!

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In addition to the thoughts of 9 years ago, I think of the families who are making sacrifices now. I think of the mommies who are in the same scary world that I was 9 years ago, but without her husband's loving arms nearby because of his service for our country.

My heart goes out to all military families!! I'm so thankful for your sacrifice for my family!! Hugs to you all!!!

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WHAT TO DO....WHAT TO DO....

May 20, 2012 06:21pm (EST)

I'm tired of several things.....

I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of feeling alone in so many things. I'm just TIRED!

Ever have those feelings that hit you like a ton of bricks and you have no idea where they came from?? I'm dealing with those right now.

As much as I enjoy my summer vacation, it's been a tough time for me. Emotionally, I've exhausted myself with the thoughts of whether there'd be a job for me, if so what position, and where. Now that I know those answers, I'm thankful, but there is such sadness surrounding it.

My school building will be closing as well as the elementary school that I attended as a child. Memories are there forever, but it's still so hard to let go of the physical reminders.

My new challenge is what to do to get past these feelings in my mind..... I'm still a momma, I'm still taking classes, I've still got to put one foot in front of the other. BUT.....I'm tired.

Sorry for the downer blog, but I'm hoping that by getting it out of my head, I can focus on getting past this. Stinkin' thinkin' is never good!

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FINALLY--- NEWS!

May 17, 2012 01:52am (EST)

We finally have news for our grade assignments for next year!! Yep, this afternoon, we received word of where we'll be "tentatively".

I know that there are some positions to fill and people may shift around, but for now, I'll be camping out in 2nd grade!!

Yeppers.....2nd grade.

I use to teach 2nd grade, but not since Ansley was born.... I can readjust I'm sure, but I wasn't expecting it at all.

My only "problem" is that almost everyone across the county stayed in the grade that they were in and I was bumped and someone who couldn't work in the middle school due to administration took my 4th grade position. Really??? Why couldn't she take 2nd???

I'm cool with 2nd, but it gripes me when someone else seems to always get what they want and I always have to move.

Oh well....I'm off my venting soapbox because it's totally not worth it! I have a job and, for that, I'm so very thankful!!

Now off to get some rest so that I can manage these kiddos for 2 more days and then pack up my stuff.....again.

Thanks for the prayers and thoughts!!!

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REALLY?? 4 MORE???

May 14, 2012 08:26pm (EST)

Life goes so quickly.....along with that some things change quickly and some things never seem to change.

Ansley has 4 more days of school.....4 MORE! Where did the time go?? It seems that just yesterday I was "whining" about going to my new school and having to make the transition for her. Now, we're finishing the year and we'll be moving again.

How can my baby be finishing 3rd grade and going to 4th??? She's not "big enough" for that.....that's the kids that I teach.

Oh dear!!!!

Speaking of moving, we've not heard which school or grade level we'll be heading to for next year, but hopefully we'll find that out in the next day or so. I'm still thankful for the opportunity to continue working!!

Now for the "never change"..... Mother's Day......

As most of you know, I have one of my children here with me and the other waits for me in Heaven. I know that Taylor's love is always in my heart, but there's something about hearing all of the "Mother's Day complaints" from moms who just don't get that the true gift is every day... Don't get me wrong, I know that some moms get no acknowledgement at all for all of their hard work, but have they ever stopped to think of those who don't have their children in their arms for whatever reason??? It's just sad...

I love my daughters with all of my heart and can only imagine what Mother's Days in the future will hold when we're all together again.

I hope that all of you have remembered and loved your little ones in the way that works best for you.

Hugs to you all!

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GOOD NEWS FOR ME!

May 06, 2012 06:52pm (EST)

GOOD NEWS FOR ME!!!!!!

I will be recommended for a contract for next year!!!!

The whole process of this news being delivered has been so stressful!!!! Everyone was asked to be in their classrooms with the door closed. Eventually, each person was spoken to individually and given the news one way or the other. They felt that this would "protect" the privacy of everyone and I admire how our principal did that. I can only imagine the stress that he was feeling as he was having to share bad news to some and good to others.

On the flip side of this, some of my friends were not so thrilled with their news. They naturally question what it was that put them in the RIF and are wondering what the next step will be for them. Please continue to remember those who were told that they are not going to be recommended for next year and their families.

Also, please remember our community. Living in a small town has its perks, but at the same time everyone knows everyone and everyone's business. Everyone has an opinion of how this should've gone and how it shouldn't, but no one is in the position to change things. Needless to say---Facebook has been quite busy and in turn has, at times, made things much worse than they were...

Hugs to all of you for the thoughts and prayers that were for me as I was stressing about this job situation!!

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DEEP BREATH IN......

Apr 30, 2012 06:29pm (EST)

I'll exhale on Friday when I know one way or the other about my job for next year.....

Any way that you look at the situation, it stinks!! People are going to have to lose jobs. I know that there are some who need to find other work because they're not doing their job in the position they are in, but for the most part, it just stinks!

On Friday, we found out that one of the principals will not be returning. (Not at my school, but in the county) This came as a shock to me because I liked him as a leader and so did others. It just kind of brought back the reality check for the rest of us.

I'm trying not to worry about it and just keep in mind that God will take care of me not matter what situation comes my way. He's guarded me and held me up through several trying situations in life and I have no doubt He's right here with me now too. He's the reason I'm not bald from stress as I type!!!!!

I'll be sure to update when the time comes. Enjoy your week!

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ALL GOOD THINGS....

Apr 10, 2012 01:29am (EST)

All good things must come to an end.......

Spring Break is over and we're back to the grind tomorrow.

Need I say more??

Probably not, but you know me........never short of words!

I don't know how your states are layed out with the standardized testing, but here there are "gateway years"...3rd, 5th, and 8th grades.

This means that if you don't pass the standardized test during those years, you are retained unless you pass it on the 2nd try. Don't even get me started about that....I was never a test taker and that pressure would've sent me right over the edge!! Anyway, I know that Ansley is smart and that she can do well and has done well in her classes all year long, but I feel a knot in my stomach for her. She's not bothered at all, and when I asked if she knew it was important she just said, "Yes, Momma!" I don't think I'm going to tell her about the "pass/fail" thing because that would make me more nervous. I'm just going to let her do her best and we'll deal with what comes later if needed.

Easier said than done........I think this is the motto of being a parent.

Several of you have asked if I know anything about the future of my job. Thanks for asking, but no, nothing yet. My guess would be after these stinkin' tests are over we'll find out.

....speaking of knots in my stomach!

I hope that all of you have a great week and that the spring weather will keep a smile on your face!

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AHHH....GLORIOUS SPRING (BREAK!)

Apr 03, 2012 08:46pm (EST)

Spring is definately in the air down south.....literally!! The pollen in unreal, but that only means that we're on our way to a beautiful earth around us again. Trees and grass go from brown and "ugh" to bright green again. I'm not a fan of the sniffles, sneezes, and coughs, but I'm so in awe of the beauty that surrounds me!

Spring also means SPRING BREAK!!!!!

I think that we've probably had 8 out of 10 spring breaks with reverse weather patterns and rain, but not this year.....this year, it's summer already!!! Yesterday the high was 89!! YEP!

Today gave us a bit of a break at low 80's, but tomorrow we're looking at mid to upper again. The news anchors were joking last night that our overnight lows are our typical highs for this time of year.

Who cares what the weather is like when you don't have to go anywhere!!??? I can handle rainy days when I can watch them from my couch.

Our craziness at school has not settled at all. In fact, none of us have heard anything yet about a job or a move, but we only know that two buildings will be closing. We'll return next week to prepare kids for the state standardized test and then hopefully afterwards we'll get some news.

Spring Break for the county also means spring break for my graduate classes!!! WOOHOO for that!!!!! In the grand scheme of things, two years, two degrees is great, but with added stress of the other stuff.....it's been a lot of work for my little brain. You all can tell this because of my lack of participation on the site lately.

For one week, I will relax and enjoy the lack of chaos! Is that enough time? Never, but so worth it and I'll take it! Enjoy every moment big or small-- you never know how many moments there are.

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SO MUCH TO DO, SO LITTLE BRAIN POWER....

Mar 20, 2012 01:56am (EST)

Have you ever had so many things going on that your brain seemed to be shutting down??? I don't mean that you need to be rushed to the ER or anything, but that you literally can not focus on one thing at all....?

That's where my brain is at this point....right now!

A little more than a year ago, I thought it would be the perfect time to return to school for advanced degrees. I had help with Ansley and the classes were hosted by my school and were in my own classroom. The program would be one year for a Master's degree and a year and a half for a Specialist.

Last year, our school system had many layoffs and I found myself blessed that I didn't receive a letter telling me that I wasn't going to receive a contract. However, I was told that I needed to move from one school to another.....no biggie except for the help that I depended on with Ansley now required a bit more of a commitment. Also, the convenience of having the classes right there, required a drive for me.

This year has been a challenge. My year at the new school has been more than rewarding, but I honestly find myself working harder than I ever have before. Not only are we on a 4-day week which means that my day doesn't end until 5 p.m., but it also means that by the time I am finished monitoring and teaching my students, getting Ansley taken care of, and myself taken care of (food, water, shelter), then working on anything else is a struggle. I'm determined to finish this degree with flying colors, but if I seem a bit distant on the site or don't remember all that was said.....just bear with me. My brain is full! I like to compare my brain to my email when there are to many in the in-box. If only I had a delete button to help with this.....

Once again, as I've mentioned before, our system is up for more cuts and closing of schools. Yet again, I'll be moving IF I get a contract. We'll see which ends up happening.... Please remember me in your thoughts and prayers. I know that I do my job and try hard every day, but in a RIF situation, that doesn't always matter.

Hugs to all of you! Hang in there in whatever life is bringing your way, you're only required one breath at a time.

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