|
|
 |
 |
|
WELCOME, GUEST |
|
|
| |
 |
 |
 |
(2 members)
|
 |
 |
niylnnrae @a…6 |
 |
|
|
Trixie23106 |
|
 |
|
|
|
 |
|
SHAY'S JOURNAL
Mommy of angel Shiloh |
|
| Category: Home | Sun | Mon | Tue | Wed | Thu | Fri | Sat | | | | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 |
|
|
|
|
WHAT ELSE GOD LOL WHAT ELSE ?!?
|
|
Dec 16, 2012 11:48am (EST)
Christians father whom is not actively on his life nor mine .
Has a baby G I R L on the way .
Really God ? The man who " cared " so much for Shiloh & then wanted Christian who turned out to be nothing but a pathetic unit of life ... By no fault of his own , who's whole family needs mental therapy & healing & everything else .
You God are allowing him to bring a healthy girl in this world . I feel sorry for that child . I feel sorry for my child . I feel sorry for Shiloh . I feel sorry for myself . For being in constant emotional pain .
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (4) | Permalink
|
|
|
BREAKTHROUGH !
|
|
Nov 03, 2012 07:38am (EST)
" THE PROBLEM WITH BEING EXTRAORDINARY IS THAT IT EXCLUDES YOU FROM ORDINARY .. Diamonds and Pearls are excluded in isolation . There is no triumph without tragedy "
Listening to TD Jakes preaching on torment tragedy & triumph .
That help out a lot .
|
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (2) | Permalink
|
|
|
STRESSED !
|
|
Oct 21, 2012 08:20pm (EST)
What has life been like lately :
Military - losing 12 Lbs how ? I've never had to meet a weight requirement as an adult . Especially when I do not get a break from my son .
Money - is never enough !
Shiloh- suppressing my grieving process in order to deal with life which makes me feel like I'm bi-polar every single time I PMS
Christians dad - part time dad doesn't even know his own son & has a baby on the way , would I be a bad mother not allowing him to be in his life ? I will not allow him to walk in & out of Christians life when there is someone out there he wouldn't hesitate to take his position !
Christian - providing stability for a little boy who will one day become a man
Well that's my life lol
|
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (3) | Permalink
|
|
|
JUST THINKING ....
|
|
Sep 16, 2012 07:08am (EST)
I've been thinking if I would've resumed my old life after I lossed Shiloh ....
I would've been just another one of those dumb women being stuck on a man for years that I was better with out .
Because I kept going back to a guy that I thought could do no wrong & thank God for our son Christian !
If I would've left for the military , went about my life came home .. I know I would've ran to my kids dad & I'm just imaging if I would've got pregnant then how disastrous in fact that would've been ,
I know God knows best & even though pregnancy with no marriage isn't how God wants it , I'm thankful he allowed the things to go how they did & even though I still have anger , I'm smarter from all my mistakes & lessons .
Really opened my eyes for the best . Just another reason why I have no regrets .
It's just been so hard but I promise every time I stare in my sons eyes I get teary-eyed because I'm just so grateful .
|
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (1) | Permalink
|
|
|
BEING A MOM TO AN ANGEL
|
|
Jun 11, 2012 06:15am (EST)
Sometimes it is necessary to inform your loves 1s that sometimes your opinion isn't needed .
Alot of the times, being a mother to an angel, there are feelings that the people we love will not understand .
So yes it is okay , to say I trust you so I'm telling u this but I just need u to listen .
My family gets it now 
|
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (3) | Permalink
|
|
|
AM I DEPRESSED ?????!!
|
|
Jun 03, 2012 09:04am (EST)
I have lost 100% percent of any & all motivation in my life , I'm so indecisive on this military thing .... I feel guilty for bringing Christian in this world even though I wouldn't of Fathomed that his father would be such an asshole , I'm still mad at God for taking Shiloh away from me . I've stopped job hunting stopped exercising !
Every day I think where my life wouldve been if Id never gotten pregnant w her
... I'm not even 21 I his feel like I've let myself down . I needa make a call to my old grieving consuler . I don't wanna be stuck !
|
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (2) | Permalink
|
|
|
GIRLS NIGHT
|
|
Jan 31, 2012 05:09am (EST)
So Christians dad's bday was this weekend & he wanted Christian for the day. And although we're not on good terms w him I wouldn't let that affect Christian.
And so long story short dude doesn't show up. Didn't put my hopes into anyways. Smh. I know his fathers loves him but his priorities are on E right now, hopefully he'll get himself together but if not..me & Christian will be great. God has my back.
On a lighter note Christians aunt (his dads sis) & I have become the best of friends, I love her like family
I went out w my friend to the club, I enjoyed being out & I actually felt attractive since having Christian lol , I had to post on fb lol PS add me on fb.
PPS right before I knew I was prego w Shiloh u was about to join the military & now I think I'm def going to persue(?) it once more.
|
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (5) | Permalink
|
|
|
WWW.FACEBOOK.COM/GLOVER.SHAY
|
|
Jan 29, 2012 09:36am (EST)
Add me. & I'll accept.
|
|
|
|
Posted by Mommy of angel Shiloh | Comments: (4) | Permalink
|
|
 Archives
|
|
 |
 |
 |
|
|
|
those moments i wish we were a "family"... Wish I could turn my emotions off when it comes to him !! But I can't fault myself smh. 
