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KAITLYN'S PLOT
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Sep 03, 2009 08:47pm (EST)
I am so mad! We went two weeks ago to the cemetary and put fake flowers down in the dirt plus we had a one foot tall angel for three years there. if you stood there and looked around we have one of the best looking sites.
Anyway!
We went to visit her yesterday and they took everything away. I screamed and started to cry that the people around me stared to walk towards me. I went to the office to complain and the person who worked there was so heartless. I was crying and he says "Well we have rules" Never a sorry or anything just that it is gone thats that. I am so made this guy says he has worked there for 40 years i called him a HEARTLESS BASTARD lol that made me feel a little better. Poor Charlie felt so bad he doesn't know what to do!
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SCHOOL DAYS
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Aug 21, 2009 07:42am (EST)
Well for some reason I have been very emotional this month, about kaitlyn. I find myself crying everynight. I don't know if it is because James and Lauren are starting school in Sept. or if the topic of more kids is making me upset but I have cried alot this week.
I talked to Charlie about wanting more kids...I sometimes want to try again but then I think about what we went through to have the the first set and I don;t know if i can do it again. The fertility, the hospital visit weekly, the ER visits, the early delivery and what if... Charlie just says no no way i can't do it again and think of the kids. But he doesnt understand how hurt I am. I have always wanted a large family and not being able to have any say over your body sucks! I can't not have babies normally...it kills me. I this normal to feel this way?
I watch my kids and think of kaitlyn and then I hate myself for wanting more kids when I know I can't. I am feeling cheated out of the enjoyment of a NORMAL pregnacy and enjoyment of a new born. I was holding my friends 6 week old baby and thinking to myself this is what it should have been like..I help my 4 month olds like this not my 6 week olds. I don't know I quess i am beating myself up. by now you all think i should go to therapy... I do and it doesn't help they want me to take drugs and i did for a while but I stopped they didnt help .
Thanks for listening to me!
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EYE DOCTOR VISIT
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Aug 01, 2009 08:16am (EST)
Well James has to wear a patch AGAIN...for an hour a day. Well that was not fun he cried for 30 mins when I put it on. I don't think he can really see out of his right eye. i feel so sorry that I have to force this patch on him but I know it is for the best.
Lauren had her first visit since the NICU her eyes are good but she needs surgery to remove a lunp on her lid. The Doctor said it take 2 mins to remove it but she has to be sleeping.
How much more can I take??? So we are scheduled for Aug 31 I will loose 20 pounds by then out of worry. Every speech I give I tell everyone just because we left the NICU it doesn't stop there...3 years later and these to are still battling prematuraty.
THey are strong little fighters! And They have some strong parents!
Have to go james is breaking my heart he has his nose in the cookie he is eating because he can't see it! 
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PREEMIE BABIES 3RD BIRTHDAY
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Jul 19, 2009 07:13pm (EST)
Well today my preemies turned 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We had a trip to the Bronx Zoo with a group of 20....friends & Family! We started the day with a suprize for MOMMY. As I came back from getting the tickets my husband was handing out little boxes...I had no idea what he was doing until he handed my one abd said," for Kaitlyn". He ordered BUTTERFLIES one for each person. We let them go and two of them are now part of the Buterfly garden at the Zoo. I was so touched we all cried. I didn't know he had it in him! We had a wonderful day and I miss my Angel and wish she was here with us and not in Heaven. Does is get easier? My heart hurts and I don't want August 8th to come. Well is is time for bed I am going to sit in their room for a while like I do every day...Happy Birthday my babies and a kiss to heaven for Kaitlyn!
Pictures to follow!
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CAMP
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Jun 27, 2009 06:23am (EST)
Ok Last Monday it was the kids camp orentation. We don't start until July 6. So James was fine he had no idea what to touch first. He ran around the room opening things up, showing things to people he didn,t know. It was funny to watch him be so excited.
Now lauren was a different story. She was a at me side. When she did find something to play with I walked away and then she would look up and start to cry. What an I going to do?
I know as a teacher just close the door and walk away they will be fine. But I tried this a dance class and she screamed for 15 mins.
September is really not going to be fun for us!!!! Well I guess I will have to were earplugs so I can't hear her crying. I told her that I would wait in the car. LOL
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