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PADMA KAILYN
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BACK TO REALITY
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Oct 06, 2011 05:43pm (EST)
i've been away from our home for our week...
Leaving to go away was very hard as all of Padma's stuff is still here in her room. The anxiety was absolutely overwhelming.
Going to the airport the staff and customs were pleasant in regards to her urn and remains they were very respectful.
However boarding a plane with A LOT of toddlers and infants was torture....
Being away was hard but it was needed...then coming back over the border last night reality hit me and my husband like a ton of bricks. Not in regards to Padma and her passing but in regards to all the other factors such as people I want to avoid and talking to people who just don't get it and unfortunately some family...
I love being home with her stuff once again its just when I step out of the doors the reality of hiding how I really feel hurts me more
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Posted by sdherpal | Comments: (3) | Permalink
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ONE DAY AT A TIME
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Oct 04, 2011 04:27pm (EST)
am taking every day one day at a time... some days are harder than the day before...
some hours are harder than the other hours of the day...
Hopefully one day I will be able to have a good day
Hopefully the good hours will outweigh the bad ones
But right now my heart hurts more than anyone will ever know...
I miss my Padma more than ever.
It kills me to be around pregnant women or women with their infant babies... I didn't realize how fragile I am...
I want my baby girl back...
I know she's in heaven with God happy and healthy...
But it doesn't help my heart heal beacuse she's not in my arms with me.
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