I lost my Triplets

Brian_Brandon_Brenton - 05:38pm Oct 14, 2005 EST

Hello, I am knew to this sight. My name is Alicia and I am dealing with the loss of my 21 week old triplets. Brandon, Brian and Brenton. When I was 20 weeks I was sitting on the couch with my two year old daughter, we were coloring in her favorite book. I remember sitting on the couch in my moms house when I all of the sudden felt something warm on my thigh, I pulled my skirt up a little bit and all I saw was blood. When I was 7 weeks I was bleeding and the doctors didnt know why, they treated it as a threatend misscarrage, which broke my heart, I still remember the day I went in to have my ultrasound, the doctor told me that he saw two babies, about a minute later he said three. I didnt know what I was going to do with three babies. I was a single mother of a 19 month old little girl and me and my boyfriend werent doing well. I must tell you all that I am only 19 and still living with my mom and sister, anyways I was freaked out by the fact that i was going to be the mother of four before I was even twenty years old. It scared the licing heck out of me, i didnt know what i was going to do, Mark, the father said I should get an abortion because we had enough to worry about, I just couldnt do it. The next topic was adoption, which in my family isnt really looked upon to greatly, and finally they said to keep them. Time went by and was still having lots of problems. I didnt know what to do. The doctors treated it as a threatend miscarrage. I was so upset that i couldnt even talk but everythink seemed to get better. I dont know what to do or say now that they are gone, I burried my babies on Thursday, October 6th, 2005. My boyfriend, their father wasnt even there, he says he wants nothing to do with me, they are burried in doll clothes, the lord took them before they even got here and i am trying to figure out why, why did he take my boys form me! If anyone can help please, just reply!! Thanx! Alicia Timberland