My Felix
gallosteph - 04:24pm Jun 4, 2012 ESTWe found out that I was pregnant in Sept. 2011 with an estimated due date of May 15th. My pregnancy had went really well with no complictions until about the 37th week. I had been having decreased fetal movement and told my doctor wtih a stress test performed in office with good results. We didn't think anything about it, just thought maybe he was running out of room so his movement was less.
Then on May 12th, while I was at work, I decided to go to Labor and Delivery to be monitored again. I thought they would hook me up to the monitor for 20 mins then I could go back to my job in the ER. I showed up and saw a nurse that I knew. She was attempting to hook me up to the monitor, but couldn't find his heartbeat. Then they brought the ultrasound machine in the room and I saw it before anyone said a word. I could see my baby's profile with an empty chest, there was no heartbeat. I was completely crushed.
After I delivered the room was so silent. It's the worse silence I have ever heard. Felix Edward was born on May 13th @ 0921 (Mother's Day), 9lbs 3 oz 22 inches long and so beautiful. Felix was my 2nd child. I have a perfectly healthy daughter that is now 4 years old, Ellie. It's been 3 weeks and I know it will get easier, but I it's really hard right now. I hate to see the sadness in my daughter's eyes.
KHolley
- Jun 5, 2012 12:32 pm
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Welcome to Share. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Felix.I hope that you are able to find some comfort and healing during this hard time.
Katie
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lvazquez
- Jun 5, 2012 4:13 pm
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Mom to Donovyn (32 weeker), Tristyn (34 weeker), and Naethyn (30 weeker born sleeping) |
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Welcome to Share. I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your precious baby boy Felix Edward. Your heart must be breaking as you often relive those very recent moments. I'm also an angel mom to a son born sleeping. I too heard those same fateful words of "no heartbeat."
At the time, my other kids were ages 3 and 18 months. It was extremely difficult to be strong for them, but somehow gave me the strength to keep going. It's not a topic I was prepared to explain to my oldest. He knew mommy was sad and he felt bad. It's okay to let your daughter see your tears.
Wishing you continued strength,
Lindsay
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NathansMom13
- Jun 5, 2012 6:02 pm
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Come to ShareUnion 2012: It's the BEST weekend ever!!! |
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Hi and welcome to Share. I am so very sorry for the loss of your son Felix. I hope you are able to find some comfort and support from all of us here on Share during this extremley difficult time.
Laura
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brookeg
- Jun 5, 2012 11:37 pm
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Hello and welcome to share. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious son. I wish no one had to know this pain... I also am a angel mom who lost my son at 30 wks. It has been over two years since my loss and the pain has gotten easier. I still think of him every day but i don't have that acute pain that used to suffocate me. Be easy on yourself and take it day by day. I found this site to be a great support system
Thinking of you
Brooke
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