A,B,C

janeen - 03:41pm Dec 9, 2011 EST

I could not believe it when the Doctor said that "I see baby A, B and C." I shockingly said to my husband, "Well what does that mean?" He responded just as stunned by saying that we are going to be having triplets. I couldn't believe what I was hearing, I even asked the Doctor if someone was punk in me, and to tell the camera to come out now. The doctor chuckled and said, "My dear, this is not reality TV. This is real life and you are having three babies"

Well that was the start of my journey. I was truly amazed that I being an only child was being blessed with three babies at once. I was scared but I was up to the challenge, however I would have never imaged what I was going to be faced with in the coming months.

My water broke, one morning at 17 weeks, and I was rushed to the emergency room by ambulance. I lost my first baby boy, who my dad and I name Jaysuse. I wanted a name that started with a J, so my dad and I picked that name because like Jesus; he gave his life for his brother and sister. I could not understand how this could happen to me, everything was going good. Well besides morning sickness and losing weight; everything else was fine.

Two months later at 25 weeks I went into full labor and I delivered Jahvon 1 pound 11 ounces and Keanna 1 pound 7 ounces. They entered this world kicking and screaming, ready to bless everyone with their presence. Still grieving my son's loss, I was very happy to see my twins being so willing and determined to survive! Let me tell you, I never knew I could love someone so much in only 15 days. On 2/3/2011 my strong baby girl took her last breath. In less than 24 hours her stats just came crashing down without any warning. Everyone was so surprised because even though she was smaller than her brother she was sure stronger than him. Keke was always so active full of energy and spunk that the nurses called her "FIRE CRACKER" and "FEISTY." I had a memorial service for her and would never forget her and the love and bond that we shared.

I could have NEVER dreamt of this happening in my life, to go from triplets to a single baby. My world was so empty and I felt so lost, confused, scared, hurt and so very strong all at the same time. I am extremely grateful and thankful to God that I now have a beautiful son who is doing well. I know that God has a purpose for his life. He has been through so much but he is a survivor and maybe one day he will be a NICU doctor, helping to save preemie babies. I am also thankful for my family and friends for their support and the Florida Hospital NICU staff. Jahvon has been in the Florida Hospital NICU since he was born and will be coming home by his third month birthday. Having the support of the NICU staff with their knowledge and expertise has made this stressful experience more manageable for me.

I decided to share my story today for a few reasons; 1. For an outlet for me to start to release some of these feelings and emotions I've been holding inside 2. To let the world know about my two angels that touched the hearts of many in so little time 3. To ask everyone that’s hearing my story to keep my son Jahvon in their prayers. 4. To be of encouragement for those who are dealing with the loss of a child.

Thanks for hearing my story and remember that there's a light at the end of every dark road